be without you

well well well
lets see
we have tests and mock and prelims in TWO FUCKING WEEKS.
its stressful
and i cant seem to get anything into my head.

so i've tried EVERYTHING to keep myself occupied.
like lets see:
-did history, two chapters?
-did chem, got bored halfway a chap
-did AMATHS, absorbed most of the brain juice left.
-did breaking, practiced for a while then i got tired.
-watched school of rock MANY TIMES with my sister. hahahah

now im left with nothing to do, except waiting for my dad to come home
hope he buys me my happy meal!

its been ten days since i've talked with you. yes, but maybe youve just have to try to understand me better cos theres much more to me than you actually know.
maybe you should just try.

to the another, i was just reading all our texts we sent the first day we started out
it was awesome and everything and i suddenly missed everything we've actually done in our time together.
i wrote this for you:

the situation im in is way more than you can imagine
like how even salt is beginning to taste much better than margarine.
im stuck in between fears and tears i dont even know why im alive
but i was glad i had you, to help me up and i survived.
i finally learnt how all good things cant last till the end
and how i cant face the fact that all we can be are just friends.
now i know i cant lie to myself no more
that you being there just makes my heart go sore.

i hope im not too late, with you screaming in my head.
i hope im not too late, that we be going on with hate.
i hope im not too late, that you, i'll try to persuade.
i hope im not too late, that the journey of us, wouldn fade.

when i shut up in your face, doesn mean i give up.
i dont want to, i dont know.

having FIFTY ODD is scary not fun my dear euge?

i miss you. (: